Wednesday, 10 December 2008

• After months of abandonment, yet spent browsing other weblogs, I feel that I'm at a point where I should update what's going on in my life again.
  
  I'm on the college path and more or less finished. I visited Campbell University and Chapel Hill over the summer with my parents. Yes, my dad agreed to drive us down to NC. Strange to think that two years ago the mere mention of a NC college was taboo in my house. Yet, here I am, sitting her with an acceptance letter in my hand from Campbell and I couldn't be more happy. I'm excited for this new upcoming journey. I feel like I'll get a fresh start with friends and setting. The perk of living independently from my parents is quite nice though, I must say.
  
  I'm not going to lie though, I do feel slightly guilty about leaving my mom. But she knew that I was bound to leave someday. Maybe not this far away though.
  
  As I sit her writing this, I think back to the initial reason why I wanted NC so badly. No, not because of the great schools. Not because of the great pharmacy market.
  
  Him. My weasel.
  
  And he's still here. Almost three years later, he's still a part of my life in yes, "that way." When my government teacher asked me how long we have been together I answered him and he replied, "What is monogomy like the cool thing to do as a teenager these days?"
  
  No, it's not the "cool thing." I am happy with what I have. He's my best friend and my boyfriend. Why would I waste three years of my time on someone who I don't love? Let's be realistic here though, most teenagers don't carry on such lengthy relationships, especially into college. Yes, sometimes I wonder if I can really be with the same person I've been with since I was 15 for the rest of my life. Never dating other people. Can't kiss other guys. Can't experiment/sleep with others. It's a pretty closed off world. But why leave something great for something that maybe, sorta, kinda, i don't know, perhaps, has potential? Let me put it this way, I have a promise ring on my hand and I don't plan on taking it off anytime soon.
  
  I want high school to be over though. It didn't exactly turn out the way I planned it would. But, I don't think anything ever does. Maybe that's why I shouldn't have such insanely high hopes for college. I've learned to take my life day by day and not plan too far ahead. It saves me a great deal of disappoint, honestly.
  
  Frienships have changed. Relations are different. I talk to people who I never thought I would speak with and there are some people who I walk by as if we don't know each other's name, despite being close friends for a long time. People change. I've changed. You don't know me is all I can say. But yeah, some people think they have me all figured out. Maybe they should figure themselves out first. Even though you don't read this, you know who you are. At least I wish you do.
  
  

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